As I look back over the past year, all I c are the vast numbers of changes that I have experienced. I know that change happens all the time, it’s good for us etc. but it can be damned difficult as well.
Upon reflection, some of the changes:
- Mom, who has Alzheimers has really become a funny and wonderful new addition to our family. I know that sounds strange, but when she was healthy, it was difficult to even determine where she was since she traveled so much – and tho, at the time, I may have been a bit resentful, I am now comforted by the fact that she had a good life. Her life now, although not to be envied, is filled with music, dancing, and the seriously most funny giggle you ever heard. Particularly when she’s drinking a beer.
- My baby, EMC|ONE, has completed the evolution to a social intranet. Happy and excited with our success, I do leave a piece of my heart behind as the Community Manager role ‘saved’ me (I’ll spare you the details!) and provided an opportunity to be part of the best team I’ve been blessed to work with in my career.
- Now, I’m thrashing a bit about losing a workfriend who has enriched my life, made going to work fun, challenged me, watched me cry, comforted me and all around become so much more than a work colleague.
- That was last week, but I can’t forget the weekend. That’s when we learned that our loved mini-Schnauzer, Seamus, likely has Cushing’s disease – another way to speak an illness without using the ‘cancer’ word. His time may be limited, but we’ll keep him comforted and warm on his journey.
In the midst of all this change, I thrash and flail but in the depths of my heart I know that there is no way to go but forward. No looking back, no changing the past, no wishing for what is not to be. Just one step, one moment, on day at a time.
I share because we all face challenges, and many of them are for more serious than any I’ve mentioned. But we all bear the burden of change, no matter the scope. And we all have to learn to live with the uncertainty of what seems certain around us.
My lesson in non-attachment is fully underway.
Praying that I learn the lesson being taught; although even that makes me a bit afraid of what is next.
Such is life.